Tick Tock

It's official....something that I never thought that I would feel, couldn't imagine being one of those women, never ever wanted to feel this way....but, I've been bit. Bit by the baby bug, and HARD.


I dream of the day that we find out that I have a little baby growing in my belly. I think of names for my future child. I plan what the nursery will look like. I come up with unique ways to announce the big news to our family and friends. I pray that when the time comes that God will bless us with a healthy bundle of joy.


I can't help but hear my clock tick tick ticking away. I am 27, and will be 28 this September. Where has time gone? In less then 3 years I will be 30. I am nowhere near where I thought I would be by the time I was 30.


It is tough being a women these days. Not only do we want it all, but we need to have it all. We have so many responsibilities in our lives. 


We need to have a career in which we make good decent money. We are responsible for contributing to all of the household expenses and any extras. 


We need to run and take care of a home. Dinners have to be made nightly, cleaning must be done, laundry washed, folded, and put away. 


We are the only ones who can have the babies. We need to carry them. Give birth. This needs to be done before we reach the ripe age of 35 because then we risk health complications for not only a baby but for us as well.


We need to do all of these things while staying fit and looking good. We need to be sex symbols in our homes.


I am feeling such frustrations dealing with what I need to do in my life verses what I so badly want, to be a mommy. I feel like I am running out of time. I know I know, I still have over seven years before I am 35, but I can't help but feel that time is speeding away.

I'm outraged that my clock is ticking!

The hubby isn't quite at the point that I am. He still thinks that we are young and have plenty of time before we become parents. 

I obviously don't want to rush him into anything that he isn't ready for, I just want to know that our time will soon come.

We will never have enough money. We will never be mature enough. We will never be 110% ready. But the payoff will be well worth it....and I know that it will be well worth the wait....right? 

Love love love,